i am starting to really fall for someone but im not letting myself go for it becuz of what happened to me before with dan...i dont want a repeat...

but really i dont htink i can get one unless for some stupid reason i go back to kentucky and have to leave him here...

but that aint happenin...(i dont think)

i like him soooooooooooooooo much!! not enough to call it love it hasnt even been two weeks!!!

man i have problems...... grrr

i tried to write a poem today but i did a sorry ass job of it...

i cant write them as good as my sister can...

i miss everyone so much......:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

tomorrow i go to a new psychiatrist...maybe i can get off my medicine that makes me so numb like....

i cant go into the air force like i want to with a personality disorder...well i can but not doing the thing i want to do....

maybe ill just have to find a new career to look forward to...

ha

we have exams starting tuesday so i wont be online as much as i am regularly.. i HAVE to pass every exam to pass for the year...i dont want to take anything ALL over again...that woudl suck

this is my longest entry to be written in here yet...

yay

well im goin now...

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love and miss you all!

~!Heather!~