well today was a bad day...i came home from school early becuase i just knew it wouldnt be good if i stayed.

I slept a lot today.

I cant believe all this that is going on. I cant wiat til i move. Then it would be ALL over, for the most part. Then I'll have a lot more worrying to do. School. New friends. What else?

fuck.

I am talking to Jessica right now. i dont think i can do this much longer. it hurts me so bad that she likes my ex boyfriend that im still in love with.

He wrote her an email that said "i never loved her i truly didnt" and thats been going through my head all damn day. i cant believe that.. he lied to me. i should hate him but i cant. im too in love wiht him.

i need to get over him and fast. hes getting over me, so why cant i get over him?

oh my god. she is talkin to me about barrett and the way she is tlaking is the same way i feel abotu dan...but she dont realize this!!!! i wish she knew!

gosh.

well im going now.

cya

heather

dont kill me